Tuesday

baju raya haji...

Bismillahhirrahmanirrahim...

Hati ku bernyanyi girang mengira berapa hari lg nk blk kg...walaupn cuma raya haji sahaja...sbb family ku ttp merayakan nya dan kegembiraannya ttp sama spt ry puasa..cuma raya nih xder kuih muih yg disediakan...cukup lah sekadar ketupat pulut n nasi himpit sj...Tp bukan kegembiraan raya yg blm apsti aku dpt nikmati yg hendak aku ceritakan di entry nih...aku cuma nk berkongsi cerita pasal bj raya...hehehe walaupun raya haji aku ttp wt baju raya...aku begitu excited n teruja sgt tuk jahit manik kat bj nih...ok nih lah hasilnya...walaupn xcantik tp aku ttp berpuas hati..maklum lah boleh buat sdr...

Sunday

Dan sesungguhnya

Ahad 22.11.2009

ermm kebosanan mula melanda bila tgh hari menjelang.xtau nk buat apa kat umah tp mls nk p lab..biasanya bila kebosanan melanda aku mst nk msk di hujung mggu mcm nih...ermmm aku kuarkan suma brg keperluan dari peti...igt nk msk ayam msk merah n sayur je...lepas suma bahan2 dh siap sedia aku pn mula lah m'goreng ayam...tgh2 syok m'goreng tetiba gas abesss....adessss....naseb baik 1st round dh msk..2nd round separuh msk..ermmm mlsnya nk kedai beli gas...so juz call abg gas

me:hello,abg boley x tolong anta gas
abg gas: sp nih
me: ley x anta gas kat umah 461 (mls nk ckp nama)
abg gas: owh umah belakang nih erk...
me:yup
abg gas: tapi gas xde r kat kedai skrg..esok maybe ada..
me: owh yake..xper lah abg..makaseh

aduhhhh sedeh je rasa..tp nk wt cena lg..redha jelah...tp aku ttp bersyukur sbb sempat juga goreng separuh ayam...inilah yg dinamakan rezki..aku sgt bersyukur di atas rezki pemberian MU YA ALLAH..

Saturday

14 nov ----> 46 day left

Bismillahhirrahmanirrarhim..

pejam celik pejam celik tinggal 46 hari je lg tgal tuk 2009 meninggalkan kita..terasa begitu cepat ms berlalu...sempatkah aku nk tunaikan impian, hasrat n keinginan aku dlm ms yg singkat ini..impian aku cuma nk abeskan master n dpt keja...rs dh terlalu besar tuk aku belajar sj tanpa bekerja...so aku nk sgt keja..tp keja apa erk??wisaunya.....apa yg ptg aku kena abes'n master dulu...2 yg ptg..huhu...

chaiyok2 zek..jgn berhenti separuh jalan...
no pain no gain ok..so kena lah usaha lebih ckit..

Thursday

Menjaga tepi kain org kadangkala perlu jika utk kebaikan.....

Bismillah....

Lately aku rasa mcm sedih jer..rasa mcm org sekeliling sedang mengutuk aku...ermm nih lah symtom2 aku nk period...xsuka bercakap ngn org n suka pendam rasa....lg 1 aku akan cpt mrh tp dlm ati sj...tp org kata kesedihan hati akan terpancar dimuka kita..mungkin ye jugak kot..aku rs muka aku pn mcm xcomeil ja..huhu.. Masa nih lah aku perlukan kata2 semangat dr buku2 motivasi...aku mmg suka bc buku motivasi supaya boleh memotivasikan diri... Alhamdulillah dengan membaca buku2 mcm nih kesedihan 2 akan berlalu sedikit demi sedikit...aku sentiasa sedar akan kelemahan aku n aku akan cuba sedaya upaya untuk memperbaikinya... NOBODY PERFECT.. ini yg selalu aku igt... sentiasa memaafkan org sbb kt semua sama jer...ada kelemahan msg2...dan kekadang org xsengaja pn menyakiti hati kita...mungkin kita jer yg terasa...biarkan ajer... semoga hati ini tabah menghadapi dugaanmu Ya Allah...



Ya Allah tidakku terdaya lagi
Menahan dugaan yang mencabar ini
Terasa bagai noktah telah kutemui
Mengakhiri segala yang telah aku mulai
Ya Allah engkau lindungilah aku
Bekalkanlah daku dengan limpahan iman
Agar tabahku menghadapi dugaan
Agar tidakku berhenti di pertengahan


p/s: pasal tajuk 2 aku letak jer tajul 360 smlm..mmg ptt pn kita tegor kesalahan org kalo utk kebaikan.. tp perlukan kan keberanian lah..huhu...kalo takut, tegor dlm hati jer...walaupn itu lah selemah-lemahnya...

pen off...smbg stdy

Tuesday

66 days 2 go ( menitis air mataku ari ni)

Dr pagi sampai ke ptg aku asik stdy jer...apa yg MJ suruh buat aku still xreti nk buat..so ke la struggle... penuh buku2 n journal kat meja..suma xfaham...bila dh sampai tahap tension yg teramat sgt air mata ku mula mengalirrrr...terasa begitu sshnya aku nk faham.. aku bermunajat seketika memohon petunjuk dr yg maha esa...
Tak lama lps 2 MJ dtg n nk tgk progress...lps aku terang'n apa yg aku xfaham, dia terus selesaikan mslh aku..Ya Allah, It so easy...menyesal rs xtanya awal2...ini lah yg dikatakan MALU BERTANYA SESAT JALAN....
Selesai sudah 1 mslh.. EIGENVALUES, EIGENSVECTOR & SINGLE VALUE DECOMPOSITION. bg org yg xwt MIMO mungkin xbp nk familiar pasal nih..tp ini basic yg perlu researcher tau tuk buat Channel modeling...

65 hari jer tggal...
JgN TgK ApA Yg TeLaH KamU SeLeSaiKaN..
Tp Tgk Lah Apa Yang Blm Disiap'n lg...
Chaiyok2 zek..
Gudluck Zek...

Sunday

~~I Got 2 b StRonG~~

plezzz work harder...dont use the same momemtom because time is running very fast.. u only have 5 month 2 finished the stdy..plzzz dont b so sluggish...


The Climb by miley cyrus..i love this song very much...

I can almost see it,
that dream i'm dreamin but,
there's a voice inside my head sayin,
you'll never reach it.
every step im takin
every move i make feels
lost with no direction,
my faith is shakin, but i,
i gotta keep tryin
i gotta keep my head held high


there's always gonna be another mountain
im always gonna wanna make it move
always gonna be an uphill battle
and sometimes im gonna have to lose
it aint about how fast i get there
aint about whats waitin on the other side
its the climb


the struggles im facing
the chances im taking
sometimes might knock me down
but no im not breaking

i may not know it
but these are the moments that
im gonna remember most yeah
just gotta keep goin and i
i got be strong
gotta keep on pushin on cuz

theres always gonna be another mountain
im always gonna wanna make it move
always gonna be an uphill battle
sometimes im gonna have to lose
aint about how fast i get there
aint about whats waitin on the other side
its the climb x2


keep on movin
keep climbin
keep the faith babe
its all about
its all about the climb keep the faith keep your faith


Whoa oh oh oh

Friday

~~~SeKaLi KeToK SkALi JaLaN~~~

6.30am

As usual, wake up early n ngadap pc...but i've not stdy...surfing and surfing, reads news, playing game, chatting and so on..but y it so hard 4 me 2 focus on my study..B4 sleep last nite, i 've promise by myself 2 wake up early and do my work, but the spirits and the strenght is gone when i awake...

InsyaAllah, the spirit will come agains when i'm studying at lab because yesterday i already warned by my supervisor 2 finished my work...I dont know how 2 describe his face at that time, but its really scary..dat y my title is 'skali ketuk skali jalan'... I know as a researcher, that is not good 4 me to do like that bcoz time is running so fast...i can't finish the research if i choose 2 be sluggish (slow moving)...


Ya Allah, Aku percaya kpd MU...
sesiapa yang percaya kpd MU nescaya ENGKAU akan mengadakan bgnya jln keluar..
Dan memberi rezki dr arah yg tiada disangka2 nya..
Dan sesiapa yg bertawakkal kpd MU ya ALLAH, nescaya Engkau akan mencukupkan (keperluannya)..
Sesungguhnya Allah melaksanakan urusan (yg Dikehendakinya)...
Sesungguhnya Allah telah mengadakan ketentuan bg tiap2 sesuatu...

YA ALLAH....
YA TUHAN KU..
HANYA PADAMU AKU MEMOHON..
LAPANGKANLAH BG KU DADA KU..
DAN MUDAHKANLAH TUGASKU...
DAN LEPASKANLAH SIMPULAN DR LIDAH KU...
SEMOGA MEREKA FAHAM PERKATAAN KU..


YA ALLAH HANYA ENGKAU YG MAHA MENGABULKAN...
MAKBULKAN LAH PERMINTAAN KU..
AMINNNN...


1.30pm...
jeng.jeng.jeng...br lps lunch...tp sblm lunch dh kena basuh kaw2 ngn my lovely supervisor..huhu..insaf seketika....antara benda yg aku igt en zoinol ckp

  • cuba fahami masud FOCUS...
  • Tinggal lg 5 bulan je tuk kamu strugle..lps ni mcm mana nk survive????
  • Master tuk diri kamu bukan utk sy
  • SACRIFICE..tiada org yg boleh bantu kamu kalo kamu xnak bantu diri sdr...
  • Dont be too slowwww...
  • pls report everything that u already done...
  • plzzzz think about ur future...
okeh ini ja aku ingt..plzzzz zakiah dont be so sluggish...wake up from daydreaming..

pen off..
1.40pm

Thursday

Cerai kerana DuEt....

6.30 am...
i wake up early today bcoz nk siap'n progress report..ermm dh buhsan wt qeja aku dgr la siri kesukaan ku ' SeManIs KuRma'.. event aku xkwen lg tp mmg aku suka dgr siri ceramah ini...bak kata org SEDIA'N PAYUNG SBLM HUJAN.actually i really admire ustazah siti nubayah dan suaminya ustz wan akhashah..ari ni tetamu undangannya Ust Hassan Din dan wife dia.....ok ini isinya..

+ Tidak berbau syurga isteri yg minta cerai dgn suami tanpa sebab yg munasabah..Nau'zubillah..hopefully aku tidak tergolong dlm golongan ini..

+ Wang gaji suami perlu diberikan separuh kepada isteri utk keperluan rumah dan keperluan isteri..ttp kalo isteri bekerja dan berkemampuan boleh la bertola ansur..tp suami ttp wajib bg nafkah kpd isteri..

+ Tidak berdosa isteri kalo curi duit suami kalo suami tdk memberi nafkah..ttp curi yg berpada2 la...jgn curi semua lak..

Kesimpulannya: Perkahwinan mst lah utk m'dpt keredhaan Allah, bukan utk bercerai...
Kena tgk balik tujuan utama diperintah'n supaya kita berkahwin...'utk elakkan zina'
Sakinah, mawaddah ptg utk rumah tangga

Tips:
1)terima seadanya pasangan sbb nobody perfect..tp kalo ada yg xpuas hati kena bincang secara baek..
2) Bina rumahtangga Kerana ALLAH
3) Suami perlu bimbing isteri dan anak2
4)PERLU JD ISTERI SOLEHAH

Doa:

1- sURAH aL-IIMRAN 26-27
2- surah At- Taubah 128-129
3- surah an-anbiya' 87 - doa supaya Allah makbul'n permintaan ..

pen off
7.30...nk siap g lab..

Tuesday

Lab Yang PanAs~~~~

Dugaan n cobaan xpenah2 putus utk sesorang berjaya..itu yg sllalu aku percaya..but today it really really hot.. my lab have no aircond....wtf.... it's our U didn't pay the bill or want to cut off budget..can u imagine how could we stdy in the close lab wif no aircond.. dammmm... dah la ari nih aku pakai baju 2 lapisss sbb biasanya lab ni cold like freeze...( setan sedang bermaharaja lela suruh aku maki2 dlm hati)...
Astagfirullah....
Semoga hari ini berlalu dgn cptnya..xpn semoga aircond segera elok... bak pepatah melayu "IKUT'N RASA, BINASA, IKUT'N HATI, MATI"... so i don't want to complain or kutuk2 lagi.. N one thing that i heard last few day, "OUR MIND WILL CONTROL OUR BODY N ATTITUDE".. lets say coldddd n dont think it a hotttt day..heeee..

smile :)...

today is 20th oct.. my heart beep so fast.. only 10 days 2 go.. i still have no result while my project must have to validate in the end of this month...OMG..wat should i do....

pen off.cont stdy

Monday

30 Syawal

today we should wave gudbye to aidilfitri because it a last day for syawal...ermm masa berlalu begitu cepat sehingga xkuterasa sudah berada di penghujungnya.... memandangkan ari ni lastday raya, pasca siswazah ada anjurkan 'majlis aidilfitri & deepavali'... Lagu raya mula dimaenkan semula dlm lab..tetiba jer rasa mcm esok nk raya... eventhough ari ni da majlis tp lab pasca still mcm biasa..tiada kemeriahan yg dirasa..xramai yg datang awal.mungkin kah kesibukan wt research memadamkan kemeriah yg sepatutnya dikongsi bersama atau mungkin terlalu awal untuk dorg dtg memeriahkan majlis.... Kemeriahan mula dirasa bila jam memasuki pkul 11pg.. warga pasca dh semakin ramai yg dtg... jam 12.30 tetamu mulai hadir...kemeriahan jelas terasa...dimulakan kata2 aluan oleh sarim dan seterusnya ucapan dr Eng. Imran... kemudian makan2 pn bermula.. menu: sate ayam : nasi himpit + kuah kacang + masak lodeh : nasi putih + sambal udang + rendang daging : karipap : tembikai selesai sudah majlis... mulakan kerja2 biasa semula...ngadap pc buat research..tapi kekadang terkandas jugak tertgk FB or FS or mcm2 lg...lab pn kembali sunyi mcm sedia kala..masing2 dgn pc msg2... that all 4 today..nk smbg stdy..MATLAB sedang menunggu.. ..

Saturday

28 Syawal

Bismillah..
Syawal bergerak begitu patas sehingga xterasa dh dipenghujungnya..Alhamdulillah sempat juga aku m'habiskan puasa 6 thn ni.. actually i've no mood today to talk with people around me..don't know y n i think PMS is around n 'mabuk estrogen' mayb..hihi.. As usual, i only write here when i dont want share n talk with people around me...But i dont want they know all about it and i should b the best actor eventhought i really hate 2 talk today..
Today is saturday and also public holiday (deepavali), and i.ve 3 open house 2 go (k.syitah, en.azwan n en imran). that is rezki 4 my housemate n i and really2 like it...but i really dont want 2 repeat what we do 4 the past utem opened house..eat various food n drink and lastly we got CB..so dammmm.seksa...
Actually i'm really worried about my study..i've not yet result and analysis till now after 2 years i'm here to do a research. what the hell is..it's i'm do not have a talented to do that.. OMG plesss help me to find the straight way 2 finish it..and if i'm not borned 2 be a researcher, please wake up me from this dream..really need your help Dear God...

Monday

Cubaan...Dugaan

Ari ni cuaca agak cerah... tetapi hati ku xsecerah n ceria seperti matahari yg bersinaar..kenapa??? bcoz really stresssssss... what should i do with mathematical modeling..how to solve this prob...like malay poems " MALU bERTANYA SESAT JALAN".. ermm i always try try n try to ask somebody who knows this prob but i still dont know how 2 ask the question..
Sometime, i always think and ask when i'm sleeping, WHY I STUDY MASTER, Y I STILL DONT HAVE THE RESULT N ANALYSIS. Y SO HARD 2 ME TO UNDERSTANDS THE JOURNAL..N Y IT SO HARD 4 ME TO ASK A QUESTIONS?????

and the result is because i'm not influence in english...dat y nobody can read my blogs juz now..i'm really really not ready to share n publish this blogs..mayb i'll shows this blogs when my english is improve...huhu