Dr pagi sampai ke ptg aku asik stdy jer...apa yg MJ suruh buat aku still xreti nk buat..so ke la struggle... penuh buku2 n journal kat meja..suma xfaham...bila dh sampai tahap tension yg teramat sgt air mata ku mula mengalirrrr...terasa begitu sshnya aku nk faham.. aku bermunajat seketika memohon petunjuk dr yg maha esa...
Tak lama lps 2 MJ dtg n nk tgk progress...lps aku terang'n apa yg aku xfaham, dia terus selesaikan mslh aku..Ya Allah, It so easy...menyesal rs xtanya awal2...ini lah yg dikatakan MALU BERTANYA SESAT JALAN....
Selesai sudah 1 mslh.. EIGENVALUES, EIGENSVECTOR & SINGLE VALUE DECOMPOSITION. bg org yg xwt MIMO mungkin xbp nk familiar pasal nih..tp ini basic yg perlu researcher tau tuk buat Channel modeling...
65 hari jer tggal...
JgN TgK ApA Yg TeLaH KamU SeLeSaiKaN..
Tp Tgk Lah Apa Yang Blm Disiap'n lg...
Chaiyok2 zek..
Gudluck Zek...
Sunday
~~I Got 2 b StRonG~~
plezzz work harder...dont use the same momemtom because time is running very fast.. u only have 5 month 2 finished the stdy..plzzz dont b so sluggish...
The Climb by miley cyrus..i love this song very much...
I can almost see it,
that dream i'm dreamin but,
there's a voice inside my head sayin,
you'll never reach it.
every step im takin
every move i make feels
lost with no direction,
my faith is shakin, but i,
i gotta keep tryin
i gotta keep my head held high
there's always gonna be another mountain
im always gonna wanna make it move
always gonna be an uphill battle
and sometimes im gonna have to lose
it aint about how fast i get there
aint about whats waitin on the other side
its the climb
the struggles im facing
the chances im taking
sometimes might knock me down
but no im not breaking
i may not know it
but these are the moments that
im gonna remember most yeah
just gotta keep goin and i
i got be strong
gotta keep on pushin on cuz
theres always gonna be another mountain
im always gonna wanna make it move
always gonna be an uphill battle
sometimes im gonna have to lose
aint about how fast i get there
aint about whats waitin on the other side
its the climb x2
keep on movin
keep climbin
keep the faith babe
its all about
its all about the climb keep the faith keep your faith
Whoa oh oh oh
The Climb by miley cyrus..i love this song very much...
I can almost see it,
that dream i'm dreamin but,
there's a voice inside my head sayin,
you'll never reach it.
every step im takin
every move i make feels
lost with no direction,
my faith is shakin, but i,
i gotta keep tryin
i gotta keep my head held high
there's always gonna be another mountain
im always gonna wanna make it move
always gonna be an uphill battle
and sometimes im gonna have to lose
it aint about how fast i get there
aint about whats waitin on the other side
its the climb
the struggles im facing
the chances im taking
sometimes might knock me down
but no im not breaking
i may not know it
but these are the moments that
im gonna remember most yeah
just gotta keep goin and i
i got be strong
gotta keep on pushin on cuz
theres always gonna be another mountain
im always gonna wanna make it move
always gonna be an uphill battle
sometimes im gonna have to lose
aint about how fast i get there
aint about whats waitin on the other side
its the climb x2
keep on movin
keep climbin
keep the faith babe
its all about
its all about the climb keep the faith keep your faith
Whoa oh oh oh
Friday
~~~SeKaLi KeToK SkALi JaLaN~~~
6.30am
As usual, wake up early n ngadap pc...but i've not stdy...surfing and surfing, reads news, playing game, chatting and so on..but y it so hard 4 me 2 focus on my study..B4 sleep last nite, i 've promise by myself 2 wake up early and do my work, but the spirits and the strenght is gone when i awake...
InsyaAllah, the spirit will come agains when i'm studying at lab because yesterday i already warned by my supervisor 2 finished my work...I dont know how 2 describe his face at that time, but its really scary..dat y my title is 'skali ketuk skali jalan'... I know as a researcher, that is not good 4 me to do like that bcoz time is running so fast...i can't finish the research if i choose 2 be sluggish (slow moving)...
Ya Allah, Aku percaya kpd MU...
sesiapa yang percaya kpd MU nescaya ENGKAU akan mengadakan bgnya jln keluar..
Dan memberi rezki dr arah yg tiada disangka2 nya..
Dan sesiapa yg bertawakkal kpd MU ya ALLAH, nescaya Engkau akan mencukupkan (keperluannya)..
Sesungguhnya Allah melaksanakan urusan (yg Dikehendakinya)...
Sesungguhnya Allah telah mengadakan ketentuan bg tiap2 sesuatu...
YA ALLAH....
YA TUHAN KU..
HANYA PADAMU AKU MEMOHON..
LAPANGKANLAH BG KU DADA KU..
DAN MUDAHKANLAH TUGASKU...
DAN LEPASKANLAH SIMPULAN DR LIDAH KU...
SEMOGA MEREKA FAHAM PERKATAAN KU..
YA ALLAH HANYA ENGKAU YG MAHA MENGABULKAN...
MAKBULKAN LAH PERMINTAAN KU..
AMINNNN...
1.30pm...YA ALLAH....
YA TUHAN KU..
HANYA PADAMU AKU MEMOHON..
LAPANGKANLAH BG KU DADA KU..
DAN MUDAHKANLAH TUGASKU...
DAN LEPASKANLAH SIMPULAN DR LIDAH KU...
SEMOGA MEREKA FAHAM PERKATAAN KU..
YA ALLAH HANYA ENGKAU YG MAHA MENGABULKAN...
MAKBULKAN LAH PERMINTAAN KU..
AMINNNN...
jeng.jeng.jeng...br lps lunch...tp sblm lunch dh kena basuh kaw2 ngn my lovely supervisor..huhu..insaf seketika....antara benda yg aku igt en zoinol ckp
- cuba fahami masud FOCUS...
- Tinggal lg 5 bulan je tuk kamu strugle..lps ni mcm mana nk survive????
- Master tuk diri kamu bukan utk sy
- SACRIFICE..tiada org yg boleh bantu kamu kalo kamu xnak bantu diri sdr...
- Dont be too slowwww...
- pls report everything that u already done...
- plzzzz think about ur future...
pen off..
1.40pm
Thursday
Cerai kerana DuEt....
6.30 am...
i wake up early today bcoz nk siap'n progress report..ermm dh buhsan wt qeja aku dgr la siri kesukaan ku ' SeManIs KuRma'.. event aku xkwen lg tp mmg aku suka dgr siri ceramah ini...bak kata org SEDIA'N PAYUNG SBLM HUJAN.actually i really admire ustazah siti nubayah dan suaminya ustz wan akhashah..ari ni tetamu undangannya Ust Hassan Din dan wife dia.....ok ini isinya..
+ Tidak berbau syurga isteri yg minta cerai dgn suami tanpa sebab yg munasabah..Nau'zubillah..hopefully aku tidak tergolong dlm golongan ini..
+ Wang gaji suami perlu diberikan separuh kepada isteri utk keperluan rumah dan keperluan isteri..ttp kalo isteri bekerja dan berkemampuan boleh la bertola ansur..tp suami ttp wajib bg nafkah kpd isteri..
+ Tidak berdosa isteri kalo curi duit suami kalo suami tdk memberi nafkah..ttp curi yg berpada2 la...jgn curi semua lak..
Kesimpulannya: Perkahwinan mst lah utk m'dpt keredhaan Allah, bukan utk bercerai...
Kena tgk balik tujuan utama diperintah'n supaya kita berkahwin...'utk elakkan zina'
Sakinah, mawaddah ptg utk rumah tangga
Tips:
1)terima seadanya pasangan sbb nobody perfect..tp kalo ada yg xpuas hati kena bincang secara baek..
2) Bina rumahtangga Kerana ALLAH
3) Suami perlu bimbing isteri dan anak2
4)PERLU JD ISTERI SOLEHAH
Doa:
1- sURAH aL-IIMRAN 26-27
2- surah At- Taubah 128-129
3- surah an-anbiya' 87 - doa supaya Allah makbul'n permintaan ..
pen off
7.30...nk siap g lab..
i wake up early today bcoz nk siap'n progress report..ermm dh buhsan wt qeja aku dgr la siri kesukaan ku ' SeManIs KuRma'.. event aku xkwen lg tp mmg aku suka dgr siri ceramah ini...bak kata org SEDIA'N PAYUNG SBLM HUJAN.actually i really admire ustazah siti nubayah dan suaminya ustz wan akhashah..ari ni tetamu undangannya Ust Hassan Din dan wife dia.....ok ini isinya..
+ Tidak berbau syurga isteri yg minta cerai dgn suami tanpa sebab yg munasabah..Nau'zubillah..hopefully aku tidak tergolong dlm golongan ini..
+ Wang gaji suami perlu diberikan separuh kepada isteri utk keperluan rumah dan keperluan isteri..ttp kalo isteri bekerja dan berkemampuan boleh la bertola ansur..tp suami ttp wajib bg nafkah kpd isteri..
+ Tidak berdosa isteri kalo curi duit suami kalo suami tdk memberi nafkah..ttp curi yg berpada2 la...jgn curi semua lak..
Kesimpulannya: Perkahwinan mst lah utk m'dpt keredhaan Allah, bukan utk bercerai...
Kena tgk balik tujuan utama diperintah'n supaya kita berkahwin...'utk elakkan zina'
Sakinah, mawaddah ptg utk rumah tangga
Tips:
1)terima seadanya pasangan sbb nobody perfect..tp kalo ada yg xpuas hati kena bincang secara baek..
2) Bina rumahtangga Kerana ALLAH
3) Suami perlu bimbing isteri dan anak2
4)PERLU JD ISTERI SOLEHAH
Doa:
1- sURAH aL-IIMRAN 26-27
2- surah At- Taubah 128-129
3- surah an-anbiya' 87 - doa supaya Allah makbul'n permintaan ..
pen off
7.30...nk siap g lab..
Tuesday
Lab Yang PanAs~~~~
Dugaan n cobaan xpenah2 putus utk sesorang berjaya..itu yg sllalu aku percaya..but today it really really hot.. my lab have no aircond....wtf.... it's our U didn't pay the bill or want to cut off budget..can u imagine how could we stdy in the close lab wif no aircond.. dammmm... dah la ari nih aku pakai baju 2 lapisss sbb biasanya lab ni cold like freeze...( setan sedang bermaharaja lela suruh aku maki2 dlm hati)...
Astagfirullah....
Semoga hari ini berlalu dgn cptnya..xpn semoga aircond segera elok... bak pepatah melayu "IKUT'N RASA, BINASA, IKUT'N HATI, MATI"... so i don't want to complain or kutuk2 lagi.. N one thing that i heard last few day, "OUR MIND WILL CONTROL OUR BODY N ATTITUDE".. lets say coldddd n dont think it a hotttt day..heeee..
smile :)...
today is 20th oct.. my heart beep so fast.. only 10 days 2 go.. i still have no result while my project must have to validate in the end of this month...OMG..wat should i do....
pen off.cont stdy
Astagfirullah....
Semoga hari ini berlalu dgn cptnya..xpn semoga aircond segera elok... bak pepatah melayu "IKUT'N RASA, BINASA, IKUT'N HATI, MATI"... so i don't want to complain or kutuk2 lagi.. N one thing that i heard last few day, "OUR MIND WILL CONTROL OUR BODY N ATTITUDE".. lets say coldddd n dont think it a hotttt day..heeee..
smile :)...
today is 20th oct.. my heart beep so fast.. only 10 days 2 go.. i still have no result while my project must have to validate in the end of this month...OMG..wat should i do....
pen off.cont stdy
Monday
30 Syawal
today we should wave gudbye to aidilfitri because it a last day for syawal...ermm masa berlalu begitu cepat sehingga xkuterasa sudah berada di penghujungnya.... memandangkan ari ni lastday raya, pasca siswazah ada anjurkan 'majlis aidilfitri & deepavali'... Lagu raya mula dimaenkan semula dlm lab..tetiba jer rasa mcm esok nk raya... eventhough ari ni da majlis tp lab pasca still mcm biasa..tiada kemeriahan yg dirasa..xramai yg datang awal.mungkin kah kesibukan wt research memadamkan kemeriah yg sepatutnya dikongsi bersama atau mungkin terlalu awal untuk dorg dtg memeriahkan majlis.... Kemeriahan mula dirasa bila jam memasuki pkul 11pg.. warga pasca dh semakin ramai yg dtg... jam 12.30 tetamu mulai hadir...kemeriahan jelas terasa...dimulakan kata2 aluan oleh sarim dan seterusnya ucapan dr Eng. Imran... kemudian makan2 pn bermula..
menu: sate ayam : nasi himpit + kuah kacang + masak lodeh : nasi putih + sambal udang + rendang daging : karipap : tembikai
selesai sudah majlis...
mulakan kerja2 biasa semula...ngadap pc buat research..tapi kekadang terkandas jugak tertgk FB or FS or mcm2 lg...lab pn kembali sunyi mcm sedia kala..masing2 dgn pc msg2...
that all 4 today..nk smbg stdy..MATLAB sedang menunggu.. ..
Saturday
28 Syawal
Bismillah..
Syawal bergerak begitu patas sehingga xterasa dh dipenghujungnya..Alhamdulillah sempat juga aku m'habiskan puasa 6 thn ni.. actually i've no mood today to talk with people around me..don't know y n i think PMS is around n 'mabuk estrogen' mayb..hihi.. As usual, i only write here when i dont want share n talk with people around me...But i dont want they know all about it and i should b the best actor eventhought i really hate 2 talk today..
Today is saturday and also public holiday (deepavali), and i.ve 3 open house 2 go (k.syitah, en.azwan n en imran). that is rezki 4 my housemate n i and really2 like it...but i really dont want 2 repeat what we do 4 the past utem opened house..eat various food n drink and lastly we got CB..so dammmm.seksa...
Actually i'm really worried about my study..i've not yet result and analysis till now after 2 years i'm here to do a research. what the hell is..it's i'm do not have a talented to do that.. OMG plesss help me to find the straight way 2 finish it..and if i'm not borned 2 be a researcher, please wake up me from this dream..really need your help Dear God...
Syawal bergerak begitu patas sehingga xterasa dh dipenghujungnya..Alhamdulillah sempat juga aku m'habiskan puasa 6 thn ni.. actually i've no mood today to talk with people around me..don't know y n i think PMS is around n 'mabuk estrogen' mayb..hihi.. As usual, i only write here when i dont want share n talk with people around me...But i dont want they know all about it and i should b the best actor eventhought i really hate 2 talk today..
Today is saturday and also public holiday (deepavali), and i.ve 3 open house 2 go (k.syitah, en.azwan n en imran). that is rezki 4 my housemate n i and really2 like it...but i really dont want 2 repeat what we do 4 the past utem opened house..eat various food n drink and lastly we got CB..so dammmm.seksa...
Actually i'm really worried about my study..i've not yet result and analysis till now after 2 years i'm here to do a research. what the hell is..it's i'm do not have a talented to do that.. OMG plesss help me to find the straight way 2 finish it..and if i'm not borned 2 be a researcher, please wake up me from this dream..really need your help Dear God...
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